Then, on July 17, 2000, I was rushed by ambulance to the emergency room of Oregon Health & Science University Hospital in Portland, Oregon, with excessive blood loss. I had been seeing a doctor (OHSU colon doctor) and my appointment to see him was at the exact time I was admitted to the ER. The doctors and nurses were trying to stabilize me when the my doctor entered the room and prepared to tell me that the biopsy came back (squamous cell carcinoma) and that I had colon cancer. I was soon to learn that it was inoperable and the only way to survive this type of cancer was with chemotherapy and radiation and without it, I was given six months to a year to live.
Life as I knew it seemed to end that week for me. I had fear of losing my job, not being able to care for my mother with dementia, hospital bills, and fearing I would end up just like my aunt. My hope turned into despair, and I prepared to die before the suffering got worse, since I was determined not to have chemo or radiation.
But, then entered Dr. Kenneth Stevens (OHSU radiation doctor). I thank all the Dr. Stevens of the world, who are there for you to give you hope when yours is gone. He encouraged me to think of living instead of dying and brought me back to reality with the question, "Don't you want to see your son get married?" He did not know that at that given time, I thought I would only become a burden to my son and my thought was that he would be o.k. without me.
I am so grateful that Dr. Stevens worked with me and helped me change my mind to fight. If he believed in physician-assisted suicide, I would not be here 13 years later to thank him, I would be dead and I would not have been able to hold my mother's hand at the end.
Everyone needs a Dr. Stevens along the way. He was there again for me two years ago in ER at OHSU when I suffered some seizures and could not talk or swallow. It's great to be alive to have one more day and be able to encourage others to not give up when there seems to be no hope when given a terminal illness.
I say "NO" to assisted suicide. Thank you.
King City Oregon